I love clocks. I have one in every room of my home. My favorite is one my grandmother had in her home. Growing up, I’d visit her and go into her living room to look at it. I’d open the small door on the bottom, which would unveil all of the moving parts to the clock. I was fascinated with the bushings and springs that all worked together to help the clock keep time. Every hour, the it would chime to indicate another hour had passed and a new one had come.
But as I got older, the clock, as all machines do, began to lose time. If I didn’t wind the clock every two weeks, it would stop altogether. Frustrated and weary from its unpredictability, I gave up and let the clock sit on the mantel, broken and useless.
I find I view myself this way when it comes to my role as a pastor’s wife. Often, when I’m not meeting people’s preconceived expectations, they view me like I do that clock: useless. They get frustrated with me because I’m not carrying out the purpose they have planned for me. Yet God has wired me for a specific purpose; one that changes with time. As I grow older, my role shifts given the needs of that specific church. Much like I projected my expectations onto that old clock, people project their expectations onto me.
Lisa Nevins Dodson wrote, “A broken clock is very aware that it’s broken.” It’s aware that most people look at it and get disgusted and aggravated because they think it’s always wrong. They wonder why someone doesn’t just throw it away. I mean, it serves no purpose, right? It just doesn’t act how they think a clock should act. But, the clock doesn’t feel shame, guilt, or embarrassment. Instead it smiles inwardly. For it knows that at two times each day, it’s 100% accurate. When its master sees fit, he will repair what’s broken and restore it to what it’s meant to be. For now, it may not be the clock it was created to be – but it gladly serves whatever purpose the master sees fit.
What can we learn from the clock? One: others’ opinions of us don’t matter. They are never seeing the whole picture. Second: even if everyone else makes you feel like you are a total screw up, worthless, and of no value, and don’t fit a mold, you are doing something right. Third: God’s not done with you yet. He is still restoring you into what you’re meant to be. You are serving a purpose, even if it’s not what other people think you should be doing, or how you should be acting.”
I work for a higher purpose and so do you. I live to meet the expectations of the One who responds to my work with “Good job, good and faithful servant.” Pursue the plans God has for you; shake off the expectations of others.
Michelle S. Lazurek is a pastor’s wife, a mother, an author, and a speaker. She is a contributing writer for Movieguide Magazine, a community group leader for Incourage, and has been published in numerous places such as Charisma Magazine and Women’s Ministry.net’s Tip of the Week. Please visit her website at www.michellelazurek.com, find her on Facebook at Michelle S. Lazurek or follow her on Twitter @mslazurek. You can also email her at [email protected]