Last week, I confessed I was in a place of hopelessness. Trapped in a darkness where I could not fathom light touching…ever. But God doesn’t like leaving us in a puddle of lies and He lured me to His Truth through none other than kids’ VBS worship music. He is faithful, He is faithful is such a good refrain to have in my head.
He’s done it before, He’ll do it again.
He is faithful. He is faithful.
On Sunday, our priest was telling the congregation about our great week. He mentioned the Red Sea and suddenly God drowned out Fr. Parker’s voice and all I could hear was Him.
This is your Red Sea, Jen. You have no idea how this person will escape the addiction. You see a huge wall of water with nowhere to turn. You hear the enemy close at your dear one’s heels. Panic has set in and you fear for some reason that I have left you both to drown. But in these situations, Jen, this is where I do my miracles.
God does seem to specialize in the impossible, doesn’t He? And I know this through my own journey through my food addiction and Craig’s porn addiction. He’s done it before, He’ll do it again. He is faithful. He is faithful.
Addiction is much like Pharaoh, an evil ruler who creates slaves of all those trapped in his clutches, even those who have a relationship with God. And I believe God’s cry for all those who suffer from any type of addiction is that which He told Moses to pass on to Pharaoh…Let My people go.
It’s never an easy process to allow yourself to be untangled from that which has had you chained for so long. And even once you have experienced freedom, sometimes this new space can elicit feelings of abandonment. We want to rush back into slavery because at least it is something familiar. Somewhere along the way, the chains had become comfortable, a refuge, and now functioning without them feels awkward and overwhelming.
But again, God is an expert with the impossible. The one who could rain down manna and quail is the same God who longs to give us exactly what we need when we need it, even if it comes in a form which we never expected.
Here’s the thing…I know people who have decided not to turn away from their addiction. Ultimately, the choice always remains ours, as God does not force His will or His healing on anyone. A large part of our job as “supporters” is praying that the addict’s heart is softened, that his/her eyes are opened, and his/her spirit becomes willing.
It’s hard to have hope when we don’t know how things are going to turn out. But, as I wrote previously at Finding Heaven,
The world tells us that we can find hope within the confines of the earth. We can have hope when we get good test results. We can have hope when we receive acclamation. We can have hope when we get the job. We can have hope when our savings reach a certain level. We can have hope when we get the contract. We can have hope when our children are safe. We can have hope when our schedule clears, when our spouse listens, when the sun comes out. We can have hope when…
We have believed that our hope is contingent on the patterns of this world. But if we allow the Holy Spirit to renew our minds, we will find that no matter what the circumstances of our lives, God is the source of our hope. He is the wellspring that never runs dry.
When I put my hope in God and not recovery, I am motivated to pray, despite knowing how stubborn human hearts are. Prayer is powerful. Spoken scripture over people creates changes in the spiritual realm.
And so, I will not cease to pray, to have hope, to believe that God can do the impossible. Let’s focus on the light together, shall we? Spurring one another on, reminding ourselves that God is not yet finished? He has not given up and neither should we.
“I pray that God, the SOURCE of HOPE, will fill you completely with joy and peace because you trust in Him. Then you will overflow with CONFIDENT HOPE through the power of the Holy Spirit.” Romans 15:13
What is your Red Sea? Where do you see only impossibility and feel only panic? Can we pray with you as you wait for God’s power to come and part it, creating a safe passageway through which to walk on dry land? I understand that many of you, like me, cannot reveal the fullness of the story, but if you’ll leave a comment with whatever you can divulge, please know we will be praying for your miracle. Those of us who are in relationship with addicts need support, too, to be lifted up as we lift up our lost loved ones.
SDG Gathering Important Information
Lisa Smith is helping me facilitate our gatherings each week. She is visiting those of you who link up on “even” numbers and I am visiting the “odd” (don’t worry, I’m not calling YOU odd). She will also be sharing on Mondays with you from time to time, opening up her heart and life to you, as you faithful do with us each week you link up. We do have some important housekeeping items about this gathering, so if you have not read them, please come here to catch up. The condensed version: Link up ONE post that shares your heart authentically and be sure to check in with some of your sisters who have linked up with you. Leave a heartfelt word of encouragement for them after you visit their space. This is a community where we actively seek to get to know each other.